As If…

Luke 5:5 (NLT)”Master” Simon replied, “we worked hard all last night and didn’t catch a thing. But if you say so, I’ll let the nets down again.” I often feel as I imagine Simon must have felt as I fight the eating disorder day after day, sometimes I have great...

Forgiveness of Self

“As forgiving ourselves is concerned, he wrote, If god forgives us we must forgive ourselves. otherwise it is like setting ourselves as a higher tribunal than him” (CS Lewis) Psalm 32:5 “Finally, I confessed my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said...

Taste

Once again I ask that you will hang in there with me as my story unfolds. Often I find myself looking back in review. It is my way of not only sharing with you what it is like to live with this affliction, but also for me to see where I have been and where it is I...

Thinking / Over Thinking

I returned from Walloon Saturday after a week of being with guests. I have realized that summer is great, beyond great and fun, but winter is a different story. I, after years of believing I was an extrovert, I admit that I am indeed……an introvert. I love being with...

Fade Away

Fade Away No one can know The price that I have paid To allow my body To fade away It has robbed my spirit It has eroded my soul On my mind, on my body It has takes its toll Has the hole I have dug become so deep That I have nothing left to do but accept it and weep?...

Life In Death

Psalm 17:13-14 “I am still confident in this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord” I find myself slipping back into old thoughts, anguish and frustration the past couple days....

Silent Tears

Psalm 56:8 “ You keep track of my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle” ( NLT ) Silent Tears Your bottle holds my sorrows My tears The ones I can’t bare to shed It holds the pain of a little girl Who cries at night instead She holds her pain Her...